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[lingeringhope]

[Hope's voice is clear and clipped.]

If you would like to leave a message, you may do so here. I can't promise to respond. I have many demands on my time, and this sort of thing is far down the list. Still, if you would like to, you may.

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[lingeringhope]

It isn't particularly petty to distrust advice from someone who has been open about wishing you harm.

[unitas]

I'm fucking trying here and you're... You know what? Fuck it. I'm done. Keep your paints. Disregard my advice. And go fuck yourself, you pathetic excuse for Hope.

[ This, this comes from genuine hurt. She's trying. She's not good at it but she's trying and... Fuck, why bother anymore? Let them do what they want. ]

[lingeringhope]

I am also trying, as I have been for months. Perhaps you can understand the frustration that comes from having that greeted only with anger.

[unitas]

If you'd been trying, truly, you would have a better understanding of us. You wouldn't lie to us. You wouldn't look down on us. But look at how you treat us? How have you always treated us? Not only keeping us in the dark but constantly reminding us of it.

You made a mistake that you can't even own up to and then you try to blame us for being hurt, and mentally unstable, and fucking suicidal. You make people wish they were dead because then there wouldn't be the constant knowledge that tomorrow the other boot is gonna drop and you're going to fuck with our heads.

And you probably won't ever get it, or care. I get what you're doing and why you're doing it but I can't ever forgive you for not at least trying to... to show us some decent kindness.

But we didn't even really get that; we just get your manipulations in the form of faux kindness and then we get thrown to the hounds by the other gods and then we have to lick our wounds on our own. So, thanks for that, Hope. Thanks for showing me what hope really looks like.

[ And she's not crying, you are. :| ]

[lingeringhope]

You continue to blame me personally for things that I did not do, and indeed things that I had no control over. It's frustrating for me in the same way your powerlessness is frustrating to you.

I do not have time to waste on kindness toward people who hate and misunderstand me. I'm trying to keep the remnants of my people alive. My kindness is better spent on those who understand that. I'm sorry you have been disappointed by that.

[unitas]

Whatever, Hope. Just what the fuck ever.

[ She's done here. ]