Shithole cavetown has, for all its shittiness, given her a lot of hopeful memories. Most of them -- the strongest of them -- are tainted with guilt, like when she talked with each of the Washingtons and they accepted her apology.
There is one, though, that's so bright and good that it dissolves the guilt she'd felt leading up to it, and that's the one she lets herself relive.]
i told my boyfriend i love him, and he said he loves me too. after all the shit we've been through, after how much of a bitch i was to him, he believes that i want to change and that i really am in love with him, and he wants to stay with me
[If someone as kind as Matt believes in her despite how he knows so much of what she's done, then she believes too. She can be better. She will be.]
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Shithole cavetown has, for all its shittiness, given her a lot of hopeful memories. Most of them -- the strongest of them -- are tainted with guilt, like when she talked with each of the Washingtons and they accepted her apology.
There is one, though, that's so bright and good that it dissolves the guilt she'd felt leading up to it, and that's the one she lets herself relive.]
i told my boyfriend i love him, and he said he loves me too. after all the shit we've been through, after how much of a bitch i was to him, he believes that i want to change and that i really am in love with him, and he wants to stay with me
[If someone as kind as Matt believes in her despite how he knows so much of what she's done, then she believes too. She can be better. She will be.]
if that's not enough, i have more